Post by waterjag on May 24, 2006 3:46:09 GMT -5
Where should I start...Well,
the weather is awful at the moment, here in Britian, it's meant to be summer, and it's raining, plus they have declared a hosepipe ban, something that hasn't happened for around 15 years. Does this affect me? Well, something is.
If it isn't the weather, then it might be the stress of study work.
I keep meaning to get down to work, and finish off my course, doing all that is required to acheive a good grade. I started off the course that I am on trying my best, but I slumped, and found out that it was much easier to just attempt the lowest grade. Now that we have only five or so weeks left, I need to finish off all outstanding work within that time.
Maybe, it's all because of my wanting to activate genes in me that give me attitude so I could make statements of action rather than not do anything. Or there is a greater cause that is making me take a step back before I can take two steps forward.
I feel trapped in a daze and I just want to get some action going on. I can be fine when I just tune in to a different mind state like when I meditate in a daze, or when I am just doing something like dancing.
Maybe it's all due to some drugs that I took that I bought from a shop.
What's causing all this anyways? Time states that all events lead back to a single cause. I find that it just links back to childhood girlfriends, like back so long ago you begin to wonder if it was just your imagination.
At the moment to me, the most important things are my friends.
I used to live a life on a computer, and I remember how I was about 11, and chatting on yahoo chat or maybe 13, just sharing momentos that I kept from my childhood and building up trust with people that I could never know.
I know that I can trust you guys and gals.
I know that I haven't been with you in the meditations like I started off doing but instead I have been camping in the woods with a group of friends.
I fall into this habit quite easily, where I put a lot of enthusiasm into the beginning of a project, but it then deteriorates and I get to a point where I give up and end up doing things on my own. It's very rare that I feel that I am contributing to a group concious without doing nothing and saying nothing. I feel that we are always contributing, we all make our music in harmony with the rest of the human race whatever we are doing. It's just that when I try to walk on the thin line, like the one between genius and madness, there is massive fluctuations.
to be continued...
the weather is awful at the moment, here in Britian, it's meant to be summer, and it's raining, plus they have declared a hosepipe ban, something that hasn't happened for around 15 years. Does this affect me? Well, something is.
If it isn't the weather, then it might be the stress of study work.
I keep meaning to get down to work, and finish off my course, doing all that is required to acheive a good grade. I started off the course that I am on trying my best, but I slumped, and found out that it was much easier to just attempt the lowest grade. Now that we have only five or so weeks left, I need to finish off all outstanding work within that time.
Maybe, it's all because of my wanting to activate genes in me that give me attitude so I could make statements of action rather than not do anything. Or there is a greater cause that is making me take a step back before I can take two steps forward.
I feel trapped in a daze and I just want to get some action going on. I can be fine when I just tune in to a different mind state like when I meditate in a daze, or when I am just doing something like dancing.
Maybe it's all due to some drugs that I took that I bought from a shop.
What's causing all this anyways? Time states that all events lead back to a single cause. I find that it just links back to childhood girlfriends, like back so long ago you begin to wonder if it was just your imagination.
At the moment to me, the most important things are my friends.
I used to live a life on a computer, and I remember how I was about 11, and chatting on yahoo chat or maybe 13, just sharing momentos that I kept from my childhood and building up trust with people that I could never know.
I know that I can trust you guys and gals.
I know that I haven't been with you in the meditations like I started off doing but instead I have been camping in the woods with a group of friends.
I fall into this habit quite easily, where I put a lot of enthusiasm into the beginning of a project, but it then deteriorates and I get to a point where I give up and end up doing things on my own. It's very rare that I feel that I am contributing to a group concious without doing nothing and saying nothing. I feel that we are always contributing, we all make our music in harmony with the rest of the human race whatever we are doing. It's just that when I try to walk on the thin line, like the one between genius and madness, there is massive fluctuations.
to be continued...