Post by waterjag on Jun 8, 2006 10:04:40 GMT -5
Why does reality have to be so hard...
I'm like giving up college, I started the coursethat I am on in order for it to be a success, but in the last term, I just dropped suddenly.
I started smoking cannabis again, and my hard pressed enthusiasm for the college course just waned. All this, and only within the last term. I try so hard to make it an achievable year.
There has been a positive side to my year...I have learnt about growing plants, and even today I learnt about maritime plants, and their characteristics.
But It's just a lack of desire for my course, I have pretty much given up study work, and I am behind on several assignments and projects. There is no exam on the course. I feel that the course is not in my best interests, but the question is, can I still study? Do I still have what it takes to endure a year of academic lessons?
This year I have so much freedom, that it's difficult to stick to one thing at a time. I don't want to belike that though. I want to be dynamic, never sticking to a routine...
My greatest philosophy has been summed up in my words as 'I don't care'.
I do care
What it means is that I just let events happen, and obstacles happen, and pain get in my way. Events don't seem to have much purpose; obstacles can be avoided; pain doesn't last that long. It's still fun.
Oh, what would I do if I could let life enjoy me.
Maybe paper was just invented so we could talk to trees; maybe the interent was just invented so we could talk to fire, since when did we stop talking to water?
Oh water, how I love you so, I have not missed out on your lectures on woe. I just beleive you are in another form so, one so low that it runs slow. Water of my heart, you are tearing me apart that song you once sung has been etched in memory. I was young, and you coursed through my veins. Some times I wonder if you are really the same. The water I once knew was wild and unabashed it called out in the freedom of joy. I wish I had more of the memories that made you what you are. Sincerly we could not do without you.
I am here, and next...what next?
I'm like giving up college, I started the coursethat I am on in order for it to be a success, but in the last term, I just dropped suddenly.
I started smoking cannabis again, and my hard pressed enthusiasm for the college course just waned. All this, and only within the last term. I try so hard to make it an achievable year.
There has been a positive side to my year...I have learnt about growing plants, and even today I learnt about maritime plants, and their characteristics.
But It's just a lack of desire for my course, I have pretty much given up study work, and I am behind on several assignments and projects. There is no exam on the course. I feel that the course is not in my best interests, but the question is, can I still study? Do I still have what it takes to endure a year of academic lessons?
This year I have so much freedom, that it's difficult to stick to one thing at a time. I don't want to belike that though. I want to be dynamic, never sticking to a routine...
My greatest philosophy has been summed up in my words as 'I don't care'.
I do care
What it means is that I just let events happen, and obstacles happen, and pain get in my way. Events don't seem to have much purpose; obstacles can be avoided; pain doesn't last that long. It's still fun.
Oh, what would I do if I could let life enjoy me.
Maybe paper was just invented so we could talk to trees; maybe the interent was just invented so we could talk to fire, since when did we stop talking to water?
Oh water, how I love you so, I have not missed out on your lectures on woe. I just beleive you are in another form so, one so low that it runs slow. Water of my heart, you are tearing me apart that song you once sung has been etched in memory. I was young, and you coursed through my veins. Some times I wonder if you are really the same. The water I once knew was wild and unabashed it called out in the freedom of joy. I wish I had more of the memories that made you what you are. Sincerly we could not do without you.
I am here, and next...what next?