Post by liquidchild on Sept 19, 2006 6:52:37 GMT -5
Life in the fast track of evolution is wacked out as all of you no doubt know. We always talk about how crazy some things are, particularly coincidences and phenomena that we have almost come to accept it as the casual "norm".
Im going to stop and think about it for a second though. On the topic of friendships I have noticed that many friendships in my personal life have rearranged dramatically. Friends who I saw almost once a week and shared the deepest of intimacies with become strangers I hardly ever see. On the other hand people I left behind during the earlier stages of development (people I beleived I would never see or hang out with again) I have to reunite with. These are people I seriously beleived I would never talk to ever again. It seems im resonating with people who have no understanding of the word "spirit" just because we have no history together. And the people who understand "spirit" to some degree I no longer resonate with because of the existance of history with them.
On a similar note I have experienced also a rearrangement of my values. There are a few things I had my heart set on for example, the next city I was going to move to. The type of weather I want to spend the rest of my years at university studying in. The type of vehicle I want to buy. Even certain aspects of my philosophical system. Some of the values I strongly beleive shift after a few weeks and I say "phew what a change, such an improvement, I cant beleive I was thinking the way I did".... then a few weeks later I will change back to what I was thinking, and saw "phew" again. This happens with my values, and to my plans for the future. Im not complaining because so far its been mostly improvements. But there is a certain insecurity there which kinda makes me laugh because it was only recently I was putting down something and then Im running back and beleiving it to the fullest.
When you really beleive something deep down you usuaully can differentiate it to something you havnt really given much attention to. For example you dont mind what colour car you get. But you *DO* care about which city you are actually moving too, you *DO* care about whether or not you will buy a new computer to play video games. I mean I have never played video games since I was a teenager when I was at aschool. Now im upgrading my computer to play games and I cant beleive im doing it!
And its good!
In the last 3 months I have changed my mind about 3 times on which city I am going to move to. I have changed from buying a car to a motorbike a few times. I was very very close to buying a car literally standing infront of it. Now im geting a motorbike because of the rising fuel prices. But before I didnt want a motorbike because then I couldnt take a girl out to dinner. I also was going to move to a cold city because I like the fresh air. But now I dont think I will do that because it dries out my skin. These are just some examples of the thoughts that go through my mind. Up and down like the stock market, dont place your bets on me people!!!
Im going to stop and think about it for a second though. On the topic of friendships I have noticed that many friendships in my personal life have rearranged dramatically. Friends who I saw almost once a week and shared the deepest of intimacies with become strangers I hardly ever see. On the other hand people I left behind during the earlier stages of development (people I beleived I would never see or hang out with again) I have to reunite with. These are people I seriously beleived I would never talk to ever again. It seems im resonating with people who have no understanding of the word "spirit" just because we have no history together. And the people who understand "spirit" to some degree I no longer resonate with because of the existance of history with them.
On a similar note I have experienced also a rearrangement of my values. There are a few things I had my heart set on for example, the next city I was going to move to. The type of weather I want to spend the rest of my years at university studying in. The type of vehicle I want to buy. Even certain aspects of my philosophical system. Some of the values I strongly beleive shift after a few weeks and I say "phew what a change, such an improvement, I cant beleive I was thinking the way I did".... then a few weeks later I will change back to what I was thinking, and saw "phew" again. This happens with my values, and to my plans for the future. Im not complaining because so far its been mostly improvements. But there is a certain insecurity there which kinda makes me laugh because it was only recently I was putting down something and then Im running back and beleiving it to the fullest.
When you really beleive something deep down you usuaully can differentiate it to something you havnt really given much attention to. For example you dont mind what colour car you get. But you *DO* care about which city you are actually moving too, you *DO* care about whether or not you will buy a new computer to play video games. I mean I have never played video games since I was a teenager when I was at aschool. Now im upgrading my computer to play games and I cant beleive im doing it!
And its good!
In the last 3 months I have changed my mind about 3 times on which city I am going to move to. I have changed from buying a car to a motorbike a few times. I was very very close to buying a car literally standing infront of it. Now im geting a motorbike because of the rising fuel prices. But before I didnt want a motorbike because then I couldnt take a girl out to dinner. I also was going to move to a cold city because I like the fresh air. But now I dont think I will do that because it dries out my skin. These are just some examples of the thoughts that go through my mind. Up and down like the stock market, dont place your bets on me people!!!