Post by SunflowerPuzzle on Aug 22, 2006 6:34:30 GMT -5
Hello all! I hope this will be a friendly place.
I read in the other forums about shifting to crystal (and later rainbow). I am going through that right know, I didn't know I was but I knew there was something I should know so could not quit searching. Or rather, my most inner child gave me this strong feeling I was in a hurry to understand something. And now I feel like I come home in some way.
But I was thinking also of one thing. I feel like I have always been like this since childhood, but that I did hide my "sensitive self" inside of me and created other personalities for me to handle life, because it life was too hard on me.
In my most inner child I feel unconditional love and have such an enormous craving for colors and crystals. I have this very very strong feeling like I want to "eat" them. Not with my mouth like you eat food, but like with my whole being. I need to be surrounded by them, and just looking at a painting with harmonic colors feels like "eating candy".
The main thing I am here on this forum is that I am looking for identification with feeling like "eating colors and crystals with my whole being". I just get this huge craving. And I also for identification with having every personality type inside. I can not judge any one because I am like every one. So when I judge something as bad I am judging my self and also the "darkness" in me grow because I am using it. When I love all including the dark the love in me grow.
I tried to do the aura colors test and I had that day (I am not Reilly fully present yet "in my body" so time will tell how i end up in the end, so to speak. :
1 Magenta
4 Orange
6 Red overlay
6 Sensitive tan
6 Abstract Tan
7 Red
8 Environmental Tan
8 Yellow
9 Logical Tan
9 Violette
10 Indigo
11 Green
11 Blue
11 Lavender
12 Crystal
All his stuff is new to me. I live my life disconnected fro my body and dissociated, and began reconnecting "my head to my body" in 2003. And then I began to feel energies first in my body, and then outside of me. I felt "electrified sometimes" especially if I got angry, and lamps in my room went, battery in my clock ended extremely quick, and computer just went black for seconds and then came back, usually when I felt strong emotions. I began to have lots of involuntary out-of.body experiences, and lots of lucid dreaming. I had pictures popping up too, often very accurately describing some illness in my body weather I already knew about it or not. I have began to wake up 3-4 every night and to see persons and other stuff, some in looked "real" and some looked like they too where in an "out of body state", but this only happens at night.
Then I began to have spells of extreme tiredness, where I suddenly felt "energy" with me, and heard some one speaking to me in my head, just saying hi to me. In the beginning I freaked out, but after reading about indigo and crystal I am beginning to be able to not block the love in me because my thinks by relflex afraid thoughts.
But the main thing I am here for is that I am looking for identification with feeling like "eating colors and crystals with my whole being". I just get this huge craving. And I also for identification with having every personality type inside.
/Sunflower
I read in the other forums about shifting to crystal (and later rainbow). I am going through that right know, I didn't know I was but I knew there was something I should know so could not quit searching. Or rather, my most inner child gave me this strong feeling I was in a hurry to understand something. And now I feel like I come home in some way.
But I was thinking also of one thing. I feel like I have always been like this since childhood, but that I did hide my "sensitive self" inside of me and created other personalities for me to handle life, because it life was too hard on me.
In my most inner child I feel unconditional love and have such an enormous craving for colors and crystals. I have this very very strong feeling like I want to "eat" them. Not with my mouth like you eat food, but like with my whole being. I need to be surrounded by them, and just looking at a painting with harmonic colors feels like "eating candy".
The main thing I am here on this forum is that I am looking for identification with feeling like "eating colors and crystals with my whole being". I just get this huge craving. And I also for identification with having every personality type inside. I can not judge any one because I am like every one. So when I judge something as bad I am judging my self and also the "darkness" in me grow because I am using it. When I love all including the dark the love in me grow.
I tried to do the aura colors test and I had that day (I am not Reilly fully present yet "in my body" so time will tell how i end up in the end, so to speak. :
1 Magenta
4 Orange
6 Red overlay
6 Sensitive tan
6 Abstract Tan
7 Red
8 Environmental Tan
8 Yellow
9 Logical Tan
9 Violette
10 Indigo
11 Green
11 Blue
11 Lavender
12 Crystal
All his stuff is new to me. I live my life disconnected fro my body and dissociated, and began reconnecting "my head to my body" in 2003. And then I began to feel energies first in my body, and then outside of me. I felt "electrified sometimes" especially if I got angry, and lamps in my room went, battery in my clock ended extremely quick, and computer just went black for seconds and then came back, usually when I felt strong emotions. I began to have lots of involuntary out-of.body experiences, and lots of lucid dreaming. I had pictures popping up too, often very accurately describing some illness in my body weather I already knew about it or not. I have began to wake up 3-4 every night and to see persons and other stuff, some in looked "real" and some looked like they too where in an "out of body state", but this only happens at night.
Then I began to have spells of extreme tiredness, where I suddenly felt "energy" with me, and heard some one speaking to me in my head, just saying hi to me. In the beginning I freaked out, but after reading about indigo and crystal I am beginning to be able to not block the love in me because my thinks by relflex afraid thoughts.
But the main thing I am here for is that I am looking for identification with feeling like "eating colors and crystals with my whole being". I just get this huge craving. And I also for identification with having every personality type inside.
/Sunflower