Post by Caerai on Feb 7, 2007 18:15:47 GMT -5
This was a toss up between the psychic forum group and this one, but I decided to post it here.
Alot of you aren't awear of my circumstance but that's fine, I just thought i'd share this with you...
For many years i've been searching for someone, I only had her first name, and it's probably not even her name here, I spend as much as 14 hours a day trying to find her, but everything I found something close, it'd be different...
During this search I did many things, i've stopped people from killing themselves, pulled people out of poverty, reunited people with their personal soul mates, and lost people I cared about.
After my fourth year of searching I was told that she wasn't incarnated, she didn't exist here currently and that there was no point onsearching, I Already had alot of information on possible locations, Cadiz Spain, Latin America, her ethnic background (Two variants) but I was no closer to really finding her, searchs for her name turned up the same results, everytime I saw a new one i'd check it out, but it was always the same people making accounts.
I've swornto her I won't take anyone else, and i'd keep looking too her, but slowly I found myself growing content with what I had, andI began ti give up, After having no word of her physically for two years, I gave up searching with onyl the occasional search monthly...
Earlier today I saw something that changed my presepective again, and I began thinking "What if she's just in a coma somewhere, I could still find her" of course this was coupled with it's counter thought "They probably would have turned her life support off years ago"
Other questions plague me, what if I find her and she doesn't remember me? What if I find her and she's married...I know she's out there, well I hope she's out there, and that someday i'll find her. That someday i'll be able to stop being alone.
But mabye I won't, and i'm okay with that too. It's interesting, in essence I could spend my lifetime searching for something I don't want to find.
I just wanted to share with you all a little snippet of my life (
Alot of you aren't awear of my circumstance but that's fine, I just thought i'd share this with you...
For many years i've been searching for someone, I only had her first name, and it's probably not even her name here, I spend as much as 14 hours a day trying to find her, but everything I found something close, it'd be different...
During this search I did many things, i've stopped people from killing themselves, pulled people out of poverty, reunited people with their personal soul mates, and lost people I cared about.
After my fourth year of searching I was told that she wasn't incarnated, she didn't exist here currently and that there was no point onsearching, I Already had alot of information on possible locations, Cadiz Spain, Latin America, her ethnic background (Two variants) but I was no closer to really finding her, searchs for her name turned up the same results, everytime I saw a new one i'd check it out, but it was always the same people making accounts.
I've swornto her I won't take anyone else, and i'd keep looking too her, but slowly I found myself growing content with what I had, andI began ti give up, After having no word of her physically for two years, I gave up searching with onyl the occasional search monthly...
Earlier today I saw something that changed my presepective again, and I began thinking "What if she's just in a coma somewhere, I could still find her" of course this was coupled with it's counter thought "They probably would have turned her life support off years ago"
Other questions plague me, what if I find her and she doesn't remember me? What if I find her and she's married...I know she's out there, well I hope she's out there, and that someday i'll find her. That someday i'll be able to stop being alone.
But mabye I won't, and i'm okay with that too. It's interesting, in essence I could spend my lifetime searching for something I don't want to find.
I just wanted to share with you all a little snippet of my life (