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Post by urbanwarrior on Aug 16, 2005 10:17:38 GMT -5
I recently realized i am a very sensitive crystal child - I have a huge base of knoledge and when feeling optimum i am a very wise soul able to communicate well with anyone and create healing energies that spread for miles
but recently ive been finding it hard to stay in work - i seem to come accross as having an attitude problem because i find it so difficult to opperate in a 3D reality maybe i just need to gather my energie and center myself but it seems as soon as i do that it gets drained just talking to people and i cant help but mirror someone
like i will actually BE their personality while having a one on one
its very annoying and is getting quite stressful as most my managers and people i work with think im just strange got social anxiety or something or maybe their scared of the light? subconsciously
either way my mothers getting sickof this she thinks im strange anyway and tries to emmbarass me infront of her friends to protect her ego
i refuse to give in and go to my old ways of being slow and anxious
i want to be me and express my energy but find it hard to keep a job etc
ahhifbiovueywoiucew
Thankyou Dave, England
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Post by thecrystalmaiden on Aug 16, 2005 10:51:40 GMT -5
Sounds like you may just need a change of scenery - and maybe your job isn't right for you. If you feel drained dealing with person after person after person, then maybe you'd be better suited for a more "nonsocial worker" job, if you know what I mean. There's nothing bad in that, we all have our preferences and being "good with people" isn't necessarily better than "wanting to work without being bothered." Also, sometimes it can be other stuff in your life adding to your trouble at work - any feelings of disatisfaction you're having in life easily make less appealing activities even harder to deal with. Are you feeling a little bit without direction lately? That may be adding to your frustration. Also, try thinking of everyone you meet as being your brother, I think you'll find it much easier to talk to them that way. Once we let go of our self-consciousness, we really free ourselves to being whoever we want to be.
Maybe try confronting and talking to your mother about how she embarrasses you in front of her friends - Moms can be weird so I understand if that doesn't help and she just says "Oh I'm not embarrassing you!" but it's worth a shot. And if she continues to do it, just stop being around when she has her friends over, that way there can't possibly be a chance for her to embarrass you, right? =)
We all put on masks and copy behaviors when we're in a stressful position, so don't feel bad about not being able to "be yourself" at work, I'm certaintly not "myself" when I'm surrounded by a group of people at college. I've learned that I just need to express my spirituality on my own time and, now that I've progressed a bit, I pretty much wear it like a second set of clothes, lol. My spirituality IS me, and just being who I am expresses it. That should be everyone's goal.
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